Der Witz daran ist, dass du es auch gar nicht willst.

It's when you don't know where you stand in someone's life.

It's when you're hanging in dead air and knowing you can be thrown off everytime. It's when you're like more than friends but not really, and it's like you're lovers when you're really not. Sometimes you would want to wish to have never met this person at all but at the back of your mind, you're thankful that you have. That's complicated.

Verarschen kann ich mich grad auch selber, ganz im Ernst-.- und ja,  DICH meine ich.

Ich hab dazu jetzt echt keine Kraft mehr. Ich will so nicht weitermachen, ich schaffs nicht, weiter immer nur zu lächeln und dabei keines meiner Worte so zu meinen.

Have you ever noticed that the saddest person always has the most beatiful smile? - Kid Cudi

Gut, dass es euch eh nicht interessiert.

Das ist doch alles total der Witz-.-

And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed, they don't know my head is a mess

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=if6hWn9KRmA&feature=related

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you

I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
Yeah you do and I was made for you

You see the smile that's on my mouth
Is hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
Oh yeah it's true...I was made for you

Irgendwie läuft alles falsch, ich kenn mich nicht mehr